I actually wrote a sort-of screenplay for "Pride" (my P&P fic) earlier for reasons unclear (why didn't I just write it in regular fic form? the world will never know); if ur interested, here she is (sorry formatting is strange)
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I thought this line was particularly striking: "In short, the insistence that slash must transgress the existing canon rather troublingly assigns to the canon a heteronormativity it may not necessarily possess" (187). It reminds me of the "Why is Straight the Default?" scene from "Love, Simon," and the fact that nearly all the YA novels I consumed as a kid had a white, (presumably) straight protagonist. (I remember really distinctly this one time in 7th grade where I'd been reading a book and about halfway through realized the protag wasn't white. I literally stopped for moment and went "wait, what?" because the image I'd had in my head -- 'according to the dictates of YA lit' /s -- was wrong.) There's a quote by Julad later: "[S]lash is not so much queer in the act as it is queer in the space . . . . Slash is a sandbox where women come to be strange and unusual, or to do strange and unusual things, or to play with strange and unusual sand" (190). I feel like the association of queerness and strangeness is still there for a lot of fans (like Julad), although it is not necessarily meant to be a negative one. (It's kinda hard to see "strangeness" as not having a negative connotation though, so maybe it's sorta sarcastic and riffing off our heteronormative society?)
This article was the first time I'd heard the terms "buddyslash," "enemyslash," and "powerslash." (I've heard them more as tropes/tags like "friends to lovers" or "enemies to lovers" so it's interesting that academics seem to have created their own terms to avoid using ones that might be more unwieldy?) Tosenberger goes on to talk about how early slash fics tended to address homophobia as an obstacle that their pairing had to overcome, and how that trend is (mostly) fading. In the future, when non-heterosexual relationships are (hopefully) treated as equal to heterosexual ones, I wonder if the idea of "slash" will still hold? (Will writers still feel the need to make a distinction?)
“Graduation Day,” the two-part third season finale of Buffy the Vampire Slayer, opens in a sea of red. They’re the graduation gowns, piled up on the table like lifeless husks. Cordelia’s unamused by the color choice, and I have to agree really, because my own shiny-plasticy, trashbag-chic gowns were maroon. It’s not a dignifying color, as Xander claims; it’s just depressed red. Either by morbid humor or bad fashion sense, someone thought to deck the seniors in blood; it checks out—high school is a bloodbath after all, and literally so in BtVS.
It’s the day before Buffy and crew are set to graduate, and, in the ‘Dale, no calendar-worthy event goes by without at least a ‘lil violence. Though they don’t know it yet, the Class of ‘99 is gearing up for battle. This week’s big bad? The patriarchy.
While Xander and Cordelia walk off together, Willow’s exchanging yearbooks; it’s only our slayer who comes into the shot alone. She joins Willow—in person but not in sentiment, because Buffy’s slayer duties mean she can’t afford to be nostalgic about high school—and sits dejectedly, thinking she’ll be spending gradu-ascension night saving the world alone. It’ll be the same through the whole episode: surrounded by friends, but still totally on her own, mentally and emotionally.
Even so, this isn’t the first time a slayer’s had to give up a “normal life” in the face of her duties to the world, and certainly won’t be the last—between Sineya’s kidnapping by the Shadow Men and Kendra’s parents giving her up to the Watchers, Buffy doesn’t seem to have it that bad. The (nearly entirely) male hierarchy that is the Watchers Council has no problem subsuming their slayers’ identities for the “common good.”
This episode is a rough one for our gals, and especially Buffy. She’s been planning to defeat Sunnydale’s mayor post-ascension and handling the emotional aftermath of her breakup with Angel, but she hasn't prepared to kill Faith. Faith, on the other hand, is dealing with the dissolution of her sense of self as a result of her attachment to mayor-dad Wilkins. Anyanka renounces being a vengeance demon and reveals her feelings toward Xander, and Joyce Summers essentially marginalized—an unimportant footnote on the edges of the episode’s narrative.
We first see Faith at Professor Worth’s house, sent on an assasination mission by Mayor Wilkins. When Worth feebly asks why the mayor wants him dead, Faith responds “I never thought to ask.” Wait, what? In “Bad Girls,” only seven episodes before, Faith’s accidental murder of the deputy mayor marked the first time she’d killed a human being. And his death so profoundly impacted her; thus the idea that she has now so easily slipped from vampire-slayer and human-slayer is even more disturbing. It’s weird because Faith is a normally a wildcard, and not someone to take orders without question. Her need for a father figure is fulfilled by working for the mayor, leading to Faith’s effective “taming” by a male-dominated power structure. In this way, Faith’s progressive loss of humanity seems to correspond to her proximity to the patriarchy.
The mayor praises Faith on killing Worth the next day, and she appears in a (very feminine and very un-Faith) floral dress. She’s being consumed by societal notions of female beauty, by the literally (pre-)demonic patriarchy. “It just isn’t me though,” says Faith, because she’d know best, right? The mayor replies: “Nobody knows who you are.” He doesn’t give her a choice—Faith’s identity is being rebranded, not just ‘feminized’ in a stereotypical and binary way. Her “edge” is taken off, which surprisingly serves to make her more dangerous to Buffy and crew rather than less. Not only that, but she’s infantilized. (“I’ll buy you an ICEE.” Mayor Wilkins offers with a fatherly grin.) She’s lost the core of her rebellious spirit, and given up her agency willingly in exchange for protection in the form of a patriarch.
Faith’s not the only slayer to have gained a “dad” in their mentor; Buffy has Giles. However, Giles’ aptitude as a father figure sometimes serves to highlight Joyce’s deficiencies as Buffy’s actual parent, especially in “Graduation Day.” In an unfair undercutting of Joyce’s character, this episode shows Giles as especially smart, capable, and supportive, as he shows his prowess with a saber, deduces which demon the mayor will turn into, and supports Buffy in her rejection of the Watchers Council. Meanwhile, Joyce is portrayed as the clueless and naive mom, becoming a liability at best and absurd at worst. She only appears for one scene, in which Buffy convinces her mom to leave town. Confused, Joyce jokingly asks: “What, is some terrible demon going to attack the school?” Unlike the viewers, Joyce is nearly constantly playing catch-up, and her realization is as painfully slow in comparison to what seems painfully obvious to us. “Looking back at everything that’s happened, maybe I should’ve sent you to a different school,” Joyce says to Buffy. And as funny as that line is, it only emphasizes her distance from Buffy’s daily life by showing her carelessness as a parent and a fundamental misunderstanding of her daughter’s duty as a slayer.
Meanwhile, back in school, Anya and Xander are in class. In front of them, the teacher forebodingly plays hangman on the board. I’d really like to think this is some kind of nuanced interpretation of the effect of male authority, and about how a metaphorical noose is collectively tied around everyone’s necks—wherever the patriarchy arises, your voice is cut off—but it’s also just hangman so maybe nobody really cares.
Instead we have this: Anya awkwardly trying to ask out Xander. She’s no longer a demon exacting revenge on fuckbois and living her life as the Patron Saint of The Women Scorned, she’s a simple high school girl trying her darndest to watch sports with a boy. Later, Anya will try to convince Xander to leave Willow and Oz and get the hell outta the Hellmouth with her. Xander refuses, and Anya is vilified for attempting to break up the Scoobies. In this new, strange, patriarchal world, she no longer has power over others. She can’t adapt, and she suffers for it. Not even the writers take pity on her, making her ridiculous with some of her lines. (See: “Men like sports. I’m sure of it.” and, after arguing with Xander, “Aren’t we gonna kiss?”) In a way, she’s self-infantilizing; now that she’s back on the mortal coil, she’s taken to worn-out tropes about gender and heterosexual romance because of her immediate instinct that loss of her demonhood equates to loss of power as a female in the face of a patriarchical society.
Later, at night, Buffy is scouting the dead professor’s apartment for info about the ascension. Angel appears, despite having already broken up with Buffy, as “backup.” He takes a heavy crate of books from Buffy, but she’s still holding the emotional burden. From afar, Faith plays cupid’s evil twin, shooting a poison-tipped arrow into Angel’s back (just missing his heart) and forcing the two ex-lovers back together. When Faith reports back to boss/dad Wilkins, her t-shirt has a heart with a sword stabbed through it. (This slayer knows what she’s about, son.)
What Faith does is distract Buffy, and to drive her into neglecting her slayer identity to help another. Back at his apartment, Buffy tries to comfort the feverish Angel, forcing her to take on a stereotypically feminine caring role at the expense of her slayer duties and identity. She’s approaching the “selfless martyr” trope, and it’s played straight in one way (when she saves Angel by punching him into feeding on her, at her own expense) and subverted in another.
Wesley Wyndam-Price, Giles’ replacement and major wet-blanket, is unable to get help for Angel from the Watchers Council, and tells Buffy that she needs to follow orders (i.e. save the world, not your boyfriend). Buffy refuses, and renouncing the Council on the spot. “This is mutiny.” Wesley says. “I like to think of it as graduation.” Buffy replies. Unwilling to sacrifice her love for a “greater cause,” she yeets the patriarchal circlejerk that is the Watchers Council.
Ultimately, Buffy doesn’t have to choose between sacrificing the love of her life and her duty as a slayer, but that comes later. When Oz reads that drinking the blood of a slayer will cure Angel, Buffy sets out to kill Faith. Xander is afraid of losing Buffy, but not because he thinks that Faith’ll beat her. He’s right, in that part of Buffy’s identity includes the fact she doesn’t kill people. Murdering Faith wouldn’t be the same as staking a vampire: she’d both be fighting an alternate universe self, and sacrificing her morals for the benefit of others. While opposing the patriarchy in its extension of Faith, Buffy is also forced to subordinate her own wishes.
The Slayers prepare for their showdown. Buffy washes her face and looks in the mirror, maybe taking stock of her identity as a vampire-slayer one last time before she does something much more morally dubious. In a scene across town, Faith trains on a punching bag; it’s in her fight scenes that we remember she still has an independent identity of her own, rather than being an unthinking tool of the patriarchy.
Buffy shows up at Faith’s in a black leather jacket and red pants, a mirror to Faith’s getup. This is a change for Buffy, who rarely sacrifices her stereotypically ‘girly’ fashion sense, even when fighting the baddest of bads. Faith comments on this in a double entendre when Buffy insinuates that she’ll have no problem killing Faith: “Well, look at you. All dressed up in big sister’s clothes.” She recognizes that Buffy is trying on a new identity—one that is willing to kill another person. In a way, Faith is also calling Buffy’s bluff, since this is a radical departure from Buffy as she knows her. But when you carry the responsibility of the world on two petite shoulders, the world tends not to care too much about your individuality anyway.
Besides visual coding, her status as a lone hero(ine) is emphasized as distinctly unfeminine, and therefore un-Buffy. The slayers fight in the penthouse and then on the roof, and Buffy stabs Faith; it’s almost poetic, because the knife Buffy uses was a gift Faith received from the mayor. In this way, Faith’s trust in a male-centered power structure has been her undoing.“You killed me.” Faith grins, briefly reclaiming her sense of self before falling backwards, seemingly dead, onto a moving truck.
But then there are lines like "Buffy, therefore, defends notions of democratic sociality through its melodramatic deployment of queer negativity as a utopian force" (12). I'm sorry, what?
There’s a lot of K/S on ao3. Like. A Lot. Most of it’s explicit, some of it has plot, and there are a rare few that just really slap. I’d like to posit that “Warm Thoughts,” written by an author pseudonym’d lettered, is one of these. This fic explores the Hurt/Comfort trope with regard to the aftermath of Spock and Kirk’s koon-ut-kal-if-fee fight in The Original Series episode “Amok Time.” The basic premise of the fic is that, six months after Spock’s pon farr and the events on Vulcan, Spock still refuses to talk to Kirk about what happened. After investigating Epsilon Tauri Four (which is, according to the author’s description, basically Ithaca on account of it being mad brick), Kirk is mysteriously afflicted with perpetual cold. While Uhura tries to determine the cause, McCoy tries to synthesize a cure, and everyone tries to get Spock and Kirk to finally have a damn conversation.
Unlike other Hurt/Comfort fics, Spock is principally responsible for Kirk’s “Hurt”; Kirk’s ailment makes him feel cold, but he is only in discomfort as opposed to any real danger. Instead, Kirk’s mental and emotional strain is the real source of his suffering, although in the universe of the fic he has been operating under it ever since Vulcan. Throughout the narrative, Kirk’s condition is a parallel to (and almost a physical manifestation of) his emotional pain. Meanwhile, Spock is going through something similar, albeit without a visceral component; the fic suggests that Spock’s latent romantic feelings toward Kirk were exposed by his passionate fighting and killing of him on Vulcan. In lettered’s story, Spock’s intense guilt about the whole ordeal has lead him to completely repress his emotions and to avoid conversation about it. Accordingly, Kirk’s been increasingly dispirited for the past few months (with “rather less sanguinity than usual”), unwilling to confront Spock and slowly losing hope for their friendship. Through “Warm Thoughts” author implies that a lack of meaningful reconciliation after “Amok Time” might have resulted in tension between the two lifelong friends; the endangerment of Kirk’s life is the only thing that allows Spock to break free of his emotional restraint.
In the beginning of the story, nearly every early moment when Kirk and Spock make or nearly make physical contact (e.g. Spock gripping Kirk’s elbow to help him regain balance, or even just leaning forward to speak), Kirk shies away. The story later confirms that this was Kirk’s coping mechanism in the face of Spock’s intensifying aloofness:
Kirk’s confusion would eventually give way to hurt, and these were the most difficult times. Spock could not stand to see the captain looking wounded, because the captain so rarely did so [...]
The hurt would subsequently give way to anger—usually only subtly expressed, bitter little digs that were exactly what Spock deserved, when Spock treated every smile and friendly conversational sally from the captain with abrupt coldness. Only when the captain’s attitude dissolved into blankness after the anger did Spock feel he could relax again. This meant Kirk had resolved not to care one way or another, had finally determined that the banter and warmth and special moments they shared were gone for good and he would not try to retrieve them. Then Spock was finally out of danger. It meant that he had managed to resist the urge to comfort the captain.
Kirk, understandably, is salty as hell that Spock won’t talk to him. What’s so admirable about lettered’s writing is that we empathize with both characters, and accept them with all their flaws. Kirk is like a Space Elizabeth Bennet: pretty, witty, and playful, and Spock his conscientious and uber-rational counterpart. We see how Kirk’s pain affects Spock, who is himself in pain because desperately wants to help him but feels like he’ll make things worse. Instead, Spock focuses on what he thinks he can do, and touchingly runs through a mental list of what might physically help Kirk—wearing a sweater, the captain’s favorite coffee blend, a warm water (instead of sonic) shower, a blanket—and for all his familiarity with the captain, he fails to acknowledge that it is his own emotional restraint that has contributed to Kirk’s condition.
Kirk cares about his first officer; despite his feigned cheerfulness, he is still incredibly hurt by Spock’s refusal to confide in him. In the fic’s second sick bay scene, Spock and McCoy discover that Kirk simply believing he is warm causes his affliction to lessen:
Kirk glanced at Spock, then turned back to McCoy. “You mean, if I can convince myself I’m warm, my inner thermostat tones it down.”
“Yeah,” said the doctor. “Think warm thoughts.”
Inexplicably, Kirk looked at Spock again. “Well,” he said, and his smile was one that belonged exclusively to the captain—teasing, slightly rueful, utterly sincere. “Warm thoughts.” Kirk’s voice was a murmur.
“That,” said Doctor McCoy. “That right there. Keep it up.”
Spock cast his gaze to the floor. In certain instances Spock did not regard himself equal to the task of maintaining an emotional equilibrium if eye contact were maintained.
Eleven point eight seconds passed; then Kirk turned back to McCoy. “I can’t think warm thoughts forever. I’ve tried.”
“I can’t help it if some people are frigid.”
Amusingly, McCoy knows exactly what’s going on, and Kirk’s looking toward Spock when thinking of warm thoughts is inexplicable to the most intelligent crewmember on the Enterprise.
For the most part, the fic is alternately painfully and delightfully angsty, but there are a bunch of other funny moments as well. Spock seems to have A ThingTM for sweaters; at one point, he defends himself in a line that’s honestly so iconic:“I neither like them nor dislike them. Sweaters are logical.” Even so, lettered uses them meaningfully; Spock thinks to offer Kirk the sweater his mother made him, and in one of Spock and Kirk’s mind-melds Spock shows Kirk a very personal memory of a younger Spock speaking to his mother, who is knitting a sweater.
In “Warm Thoughts,” the whole will-they-or-won’t-they? cliché is tackled head-on, and instead of being irritating, I can actually dig it. Spock first suggests mind-melding as a way to help Kirk perceive warmth, and nearly all of Spock and Kirk’s four mind melds nearly devolve into straight up mind-sex until Spock, spooked, breaks the connection and leaves Kirk to “meditate.” The mind melds here are used as a tool to bare Spock and Kirk’s souls to each other; they generate more vulnerability and require more trust than probably any other contrivance in sci-fi. Vulnerability is central to the narrative as it is to most Hurt/Comfort fics, but also serves as a marker of the “androgyny” of Kirk and Spock’s relationship. Additionally, according to Lamb and Veith, the “...hurt-comfort theme...depends on Kirk’s and Spock’s “feminine” traits: compassion, tenderness, affection, gentleness, altruism, and, most important, the necessity for permission to initiate physical closeness” (Lamb and Veith 108). Part of Spock’s inner fight is that he is worried that exposing himself to the captain, with all his love of Kirk and hatred of himself, will completely destroy not just their relationship, but Kirk himself:
Spock wished that he could feign lack of comprehension, but he remembered what had occurred just before he had broken the mind link—hands touching, lips, the feel of skin to skin. Spock understood all too well, and yet to say so would require explaining that he could not act on such emotion without enslaving himself to it. To venture into such a relationship with the captain would risk reenacting his pon farr all over again, and there was nothing in the conceivable universe Spock less wanted to do than hurt his captain.
Before the fourth and final meld in the fic, Kirk is in the sickbay, his body temperature fatally dropping. Spock performs a hasty mind meld in order to stabilize him, while McCoy and Uhura hurriedly try to synthesize a cure. Spock’s memories involuntarily shift to the fight on Vulcan, at which point Kirk mentally interferes and leads both of their minds in a new direction, toward a new concept of heat: sex. In fact, some of the lines of the fic are reminiscent of T. Jonesy and Killa’s fanvid, “Closer,” such as “...thought was not in words but images, ideas, a feeling: the image of hips rolling. The low, hot snap of desire, a flame of want” and “Jim sent another image: hands on a back—brief, pornographic. With it, Spock could feel the heat of skin on his, the innocent sensation of fingers on his spine, the not-so-innocent sensation of a hard body under his.” The author doesn’t use the Vulcan mind meld simply as a vehicle for sex, but rather a means of binding Kirk and Spock in emotional intimacy. And after their mind meld, McCoy is finally successful in treating the captain. In “Warm Thoughts,” lettered explores a timeline in which the event of “Amok Time” are a lot more sexually charged, and the fallout a lot more agonizing. But, as the closing scene shows Spock seeking out Kirk to finally talk about what happened in Vulcan, the same incident that tore the pair apart has become the means of uniting them.
Or, as tumblr user transienttrash asked “fellas is it gay to have to fuck or die and declaring yourself cured of this after wrestling around in the dirt with your (dude) captain :/"
Yes. <3
Ten minutes before the Enterprise’s maiden voyage, Lieutenant Sulu was sprinting to the bridge.
Swarms of wide-eyed recruits fraternized on the deck, making banal exclamations about how the shininess of the hull, or the neatness of the facilities. And, yeah, the ship was pretty freakin’ impressive, but Hikaru didn’t have time for sightseeing. After veering ungracefully through the crowd—because apparently four years at Starfleet Academy still wasn’t enough time for people to realize that the middle of the hallway isn’t the best place for a casual chat—he resumed his pace.
And how nice it was for the recruits to have their first real taste of adventure. At the moment, however, Hikaru had slightly more pressing matters. There was an emergency in a system nearly 17 light years away, that damned helmsman McKenna had gotten himself sick, and now he had to frantically dash across an entire craft to command a starship that’d never even been flo--
Thud.
The first time Hikaru ran into Spock was on the newly-christened Enterprise. And by ran into, like, literally collided.
The force of the impact threw Hikaru to the ground; the individual he crashed into, not so much.
Ow. Hikaru blinked, trying to rapidly process what had happened. Above him, a tall figure was looking downward, unimpressed, hands clasped behind his back.
“I’m sorry.” Hikaru said, gripping his side. Because damn did that hurt. Did he run into a person or a brick wall?!
He looked up. Before him, a man (...maybe?) in a blue uniform, entirely unfazed by the incident. Pointed ears, eyebrows sharp enough to kill a man, and bowl cut of a 21st century K-pop star… yup, that’s a Vulcan.
“Apology unnecessary. However, you may note that accelerated collisions with crewmembers are not an effective nor efficient means of navigation.” Space Jungkook replied curtly, before walking off.